Question is not-why am I not holding promotion letter today. But relative movement in my surrounding area; is telling me that there is something terribly wrong with me.
Am I wrong person at wrong place? I have this thought from day one. I was asked whether you would like to study further? ; where I was just passed out from college and aware of nothing about this professional life. When I said yes; it simply meant that I will be paid to learn and I will not add any value to company. So I don’t deserve any job assignment here. Is that still true?
Finally I am posted to a location which is alien (may be alien is bit exaggerated word) to me at some extent. What all things I have there? Electrical engineering degree books which I have not ever read. What all resources available here at workplace? and will it be able to provide enough knowledge to me? Even today also I do not have sufficient answer to this?
Transformer incident or alarm that I missed or bus section breaker. Whether I was only person there? I don’t think so; even my personal observations also don’t support it. But future incidents say I was only present there. And ultimately I am not the person to conclude anything.
I don’t know what is happening around me but all these questions have put me puzzled state.
Or it is an ignored thing parked aside. Because even when I received my transferred letter, no one checked at least the name is written right or not? I am sure it has been signed by higher authority and gone through senior people. Now I am going to face my 5th review. And I will have many more surprises ahead also??
At end again, what all have written, will be decided by what meaning you will take.